am i being selfish??

everything happening around me has really got me CONFUSED!

i feel like a big ball of emotions......happiness, sad, confused, rage, guilty, disappointment, euphoric, and LOST!

most of all LOST! things happening in my personal life over the course of last year......it feels are taking its toll on me finally! i dun remember when last being alone with my thoughts was so scary for me.......

things everyone expects from me......i ve no problem with expectation.....i believe they care that why they expect but i wish once just once people around me wud understand dat i am a real person wid real needs......i also dream and work hard to realise them! i try my best to fit everyone in the equation but its not possible always to do that! smtimes i do wish to live just for myself! n i wish everyone wud understand me........

i m told no reason, not given a chance to give my side of story........just a verdict!
and dat too in a sense which i feel makes it a mere formality ......mayb so as not to lead me........

i wish one day i cud do the same.......say wat i wanted to say and then walk away........


am i being selfish to wish it??