i m done with it..........

my days in mumbai are ending..........and so is my resolve to stay in this city!! a s i ve mentioned it was never my fave city.......
but after my mentor today said that my project is not upto the mark.......... i dun think i wanna spend another minute in this city!
two months of hard work gone down the drain in 2 min of his review! i knw if if it is not upto the mark thn maybe i shud just try to do smthng abt it but frankly i feel so tired! my head, legs and arms are hurting and i cant focus on work nemre! 2 mnths of continuous sincere work.........with out any support from my said mentor! he is a guy who at times wud not even talk to me straight! i did odd jobs in office with my prjct without any objection! the types u ask a secretatry to do!
whn i ask for support his reply was always i cant help u go your way abt it...and when i do u reject my work!

it s like sm1 has taken away my two mnths which i could have spent learning so much!
alas! i get back to work and raise my standard of prjct.........but with no mre passion to motivate me to do it.........i just look forward to get done with it!

mumbai local...........

MY 2 months in Mumbai are coming to an end! Frankly it is so not my favourite city. Everyone says it is difficult to match the fast paced & hard life of Mumbai......... maybe it is ......but this fast pace is not because we need it here to survive........NO SIR...........but because people here have made it a part of their life unnecessarily (don’t bash me for sayin it). And hard ...... agn because we like it that way! Every mrng the mad rush to get into local frankly I ve never missed one for too much crowd and I travel in peak hours from a station whr 15-20 other females take the local with me(for first class compartment believe me 15 is a HUGE number.......it a small compartment with place for only 13 females to sit......rest of us stand) and evn if we dun mindlessly try to rush and hop onto the train I still dun think it wud make much difference. Just maybe we wont hurt sm1 in the process. Similarly AfTER u get onboard the HARD life doesn’t end sm1 or other wud either comment that I shud not carry a back pack bcoz it takes too much space(Well I paid lot of money for that bag I would take it anywhr I want................umm not to forget that I cant do without my laptop....all info in that little black box:P) if not me thn they wud be fightin on why sm1 arm is touching their bag(well I m pressed b/w a bunch of females and let me tell u it never fails to creep u out....... not to forget that I keep praying that plz god let thm all be straight...........nothin angst gays I swear but it wud be kinda creepy is sm female touches me intentionally ) I mean imagine a train compartment packed no place to stand and dear ladies fighting that one arm is touching a bag that doen not belong to the owner of the arm......! when I can only guess whr my own, my VERY OWN, PRECIOUS arm is!crazy it is!!
And today one of the very respectable aunty ji was looking at me top to bottom( I refuse to believe she was chkin me out........)she started mumbling smthng under her breath.......prbbly just sayin a prayer for me;)! very nice aunty ji I must admit......she was no way trying to jinx me, I m pretty sure!!
Well maybe it is a lil hard but thn we can try to take it easy! Try to be a lil more tolerate, smile a lil, try not to kill every1 on ur way home/office! Coz with all the (cat)fights happening every day I have seen thm becoming friends because they travel in same local! They make plans to meet on weekends, share recipes, have heard a few of thm singing together!
Well after spending two mnths here it is still not on my favourite places list...............but I guess I have to admit Mumbai is nonetheless a interesting place;)
I guess there are goin to be more blog post abt Mumbai from me! If sm1 is still readin this blog..................thank you so much for not abandoning it............please comment if u have ever been to Mumbai and share ur experience!
‘J’

p.s. I took the pic yday at marine drive..........!! not bad eh??

INDIA ON TOP........... :)

So national geographic puts India right on top of their second annual greendex survey........
To know more about the survey visit
http://www.nationalgeographic.com/greendex
or pick a copy of 2day’s TOI!
so all those times u got on that bus/local train/carpool to save time and money u helped in making your planet greener........... It’s funny that all my cribbing about taking local everyday (m in Mumbai till end of June) is suddenly a very happy feeling for me!! Now I m feeling rather proud (ego inflation) that I m helping in keeping earth greener!! Also I m going to tell all my non vegetarian friends how THEY are contributing towards degrading the environment! ;)
Apart from it I want to reflect that how lack of resources is keeping us from adding in to global environmental trouble, or how because of religious sentiments or other reasons a sizable Indian population is vegetarian. It means or rather I assume that we are on top by default NOT by design.
And suddenly the inflated ego goes KABOOM!!!!!
We are helping the environment unknowingly but I wish we could do more about it. Like not using plastic bags, reusing that same plastic bag again and again, switching from bulbs to CFLs, and lot of other ways we already are aware of. Small things make big difference!
I am not a preacher plus as I mentioned earlier its not even a subject that needs preaching. We are aware of what all can be done and how we can contribute............
Knowledge is there; only thing we lack is action!
Have good day.......!!
‘J’

long lost blogger............

okay......i have no excuses to not update my blog except my laziness.........but i m back:D

Shifting base from delhi to pune didnt just brought a change in surroundings but i guess it somewhat changed me as well.........i cant pinpoint it......but i definitely can feel it.........
again mayb its just not abt being in a different city...........but experiences i went thru as i mentioned in my last post.
experiences they teach you so much.........they change you! u start thinkin abt things u never considered. being here has been one such experience! first tym in hostel........u learn so much! sharin personal space with strangers at first n thn suddenly becoming gr8 frends with thm is just so....umm...different! but thn i ve roomie who has a heart of gold and can cheer me up netym of the day so its actually fun! i m thankful to god for givin me chance to move on from the frustration i was goin through! it was a welcome change, no longer i was dwelling on the mistakes i have made. that bad phase, it seems so far away now.......considerin i thot that it wont end:)
i guess thats how it works......whn u think that thr is no end to ur failures tr comes a chance to change everything. and it becomes a matter of choices we make that brings hope! that ray of hope at the end of the tunnel it does not reach us untill we do smthng to see it,till thn its all dead ends!

with renewed faith and hope
'J'

am i being selfish??

everything happening around me has really got me CONFUSED!

i feel like a big ball of emotions......happiness, sad, confused, rage, guilty, disappointment, euphoric, and LOST!

most of all LOST! things happening in my personal life over the course of last year......it feels are taking its toll on me finally! i dun remember when last being alone with my thoughts was so scary for me.......

things everyone expects from me......i ve no problem with expectation.....i believe they care that why they expect but i wish once just once people around me wud understand dat i am a real person wid real needs......i also dream and work hard to realise them! i try my best to fit everyone in the equation but its not possible always to do that! smtimes i do wish to live just for myself! n i wish everyone wud understand me........

i m told no reason, not given a chance to give my side of story........just a verdict!
and dat too in a sense which i feel makes it a mere formality ......mayb so as not to lead me........

i wish one day i cud do the same.......say wat i wanted to say and then walk away........


am i being selfish to wish it??

TAGGED!!

AaYuShi tagged me

so here i go........

1) LAST MOVIE U SAW IN A THEATRE?
27 Dresses

2) WHAT BOOK ARE U READING??
Rereading eleven minutes by paulo coelho

3) FAVOURITE BOARD GAME?
tho not really a fan but i liked playing the game of life

4) FAVOURITE MAGAZINE?
dont read thm much! except femina whn i m gettng my hair cut(dats is all they have)

5) FAVOURITE SMELLS?
smell of moist soil, chocolates, my hair:P

6)FAVOURITE SOUNDS?
pittar patter of rain, wind chimes

7) WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD?
being helpless

8) WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN U WAKE?
it cant be morning ALREADY!:O

9) FAVOURITE FASTFOOD PLACE?
Mcdonalds or pizza hut:D

10) FUTURE CHILDS NAME?
i dun have name of that child's father yet..........so it can wait!

11) FINISH THIS STATEMENT---'IF I HAD A LOT OF MONEY I'D'
Be RICH!!

12) DO U DRIVE FAST?
No

13)DO U SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL?
nah.......just me n my pillow!:D

14)STORMS--COOL OR SCARY?
definitely cool!

15)WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST CAR?
Hyundai Santro

16) FAVOURITE DRINK?
water:P, and iced tea(peach)

17)FINISH THIS STATEMENT-IF I HAD THE TIME I WOULD..
have updated my blog sooner

18)DO YOU EAT THE STEMS ON BROCCOLI?
ewww!

19)IF YOU COULD DYE YOUR HAIR ANY OTHER COLOUR, WHAT WOULD BE YOUR CHOICE?
i wud dye the ends purple!

20)NAME ALL THE DIFFERENT CITIES/TOWNS U HAVE LIVED IN?
delhi

21) FAVOURITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
cricket, F1, tennis, soccer!

22)ONE NICE THING ABOUT THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU?
it was very thoughtful of her!:)

23)WHATS UNDER YOUR BED?
dust bunnies:P n my lost hair pins!

24)WOULD U LIKE TO BE BORN AS YOURSELF AGAIN??
OH YES!

25)MORNING PERSON OR NIGHT OWL?
umm more of a night owl!

26)OVER EASY OR SUNNY SIDE UP?
sunny side up!

27) FAVOURITE PLACE TO RELAX?
home!

28)FAVOURITE PIE?
apple

29)FAVOURITE ICECREAM FLAVOUR?
currently mint choco chip!

30)OF ALL THE PEOPLE U HAVE TAGGED, WHO IS THE MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND FIRST?
...........


My turn to tag!!:D

i tag
meghna
Rajtilak
Soul
sahefa

I VE GOT THE POWER...........

few days ago while coming back from shoppin smthng happened thought i should share!

i was crossing road near to where i live! its a very busy road so i usually wait for traffic lights to turn red before crossing(thr is no pedestrian light:( )so while waitin i saw a old fellow at the middle section of the road! he was carryin sm baggage n a few times tried crossing the road but none of the cars slowed down enough to let him cross! to be honest some of thm sped up! well finally he did cross it! n thn after i reached the middle section imagine my surprise whn some cars slowed down n one completely come to a halt so that i could cross!:O

i dint knw to how to feel abt the incidence...........freaked out or just laugh at the sheer stupidity!

n b4 i ve moral police breathin down my neck let me assure every1 i was fully clothed top to bottom! a no nonsense maroon tee with blue denims n flats!

perhaps it was just GIRL POWER!!;)


'J'