i am what i am!!

Change is funny thing!

2011-07-01T11:31:00.003+05:30

Have you ever felt that when your life was moving ahead that a part of you were left behind..........you did realize it then, but dint care enough. But now when you are in same situation, place you dont feel that deja vu, you feel.....oops! or maybe some other feeling along the same lines.

Much has changed in last one year for me.....got my first job.....left my first job! and now trying to find another :P i left by choice though i know it wasnt the right decision because as the theory goes never leave your current job unless you have something else in hand but in practical when you dont enjoy your work, or people as in my case i dont see any point in continuing.

i have realized i dont write often anymore...no i m not talkin abt my blog i guess i ve always been irregular at that but otherwise as well. after leavin my job i recently moved back home discovered some old writing and drawings. Still love what i drew but after reading what i ve wrote.........i cant stop laughin. i had a diary and boy o boy i wrote everything in there. things that should probably never be there in writing.....lol! But the irony is though i know i should probably burn that thing to save myself from humiliation i cant. the innocence in those words is lost..... i hope not for forever but currently it does not exist, the faith and the optimism is bleak. and that notebook is like a memoir of what i was.

oh well i guess things change, people change ........not for good always but neither for worse.

'J'

i m still alive........:P

2010-01-12T23:16:00.002+05:30

it seems like ages have passed since i wrote anything ............at all!! except exam papers:(

i just received a comment on my last post which just got meto sit down nd write smthng. Dear anonymous........THANK YOU SO MuCH!! its gud to knw sm1 still stumbles upon my blog:D

my two years in pune ae ending.........i got a job...........soon will get my location. and as everytym i do it its tym to reflect back on these two year in pune.

seems like yday(no really) whn i moved here thn sulked for weeks here. missedhome like hell(still do). i swear to god from past two weeks i ve this really storng urge to eat 'mom ke haath ka mutter paneer':P i am dreamin of it these days.:P:P:P

living in hostel teaches you a lot of things.......patience, independence, caring for people at you........and also i dun give a damn attitude.
and after two year i m not scared to move to any unknown city. its like every new thing now comes with a sense of adventure.

the people here that i m goin to miss. i owe a lot of my smiles here to my friends and batchmates. there is atleast once that each one of them have got me smilin....... :)
after living with a big family for two years goin back to a small one is goin to be different....... then the fear that you might not see some of thm for years. maybe we shud get sm sort of counselling:P

i dunno if it is for gud or worse .......but u get attached to the freedom u have in hostel....or living away fom home. i ve recently strted wishin to live alone smwhr really far away so as to know how well i manage on my own. maybe at point of tym we strt wishing for something more than just financial independence. but at the same tym going back home tempts you to no end.....specially whn i miss delhi and winters so much. if someone once more mentions that climate in pune is gud(whn they are in delhi) only god knows wat i ll end up doin. pune is gud whn u come here for few weeks or mnths..........but same weather year arnd except those freaking mnths whn it rains......i cant tell december apart from may!! i like winter.......hell i love them.considerin i ll go back only in march i ll have to wait for 9 mnths more(after march) for my fav season:(

i start my last trimeste from tommorow mrng:) i knw i dint really got nastalgic in this post.........mayb i can write another post abt my tym here:)

but it sure as hell feels gud to write! past week has been pretty gud today i wrote before that i was drawing maybe i m becoming what i came here as!!

is it cominga full circle for me??

dunno!!

love
'J'

i m done with it..........

2009-06-24T13:32:00.002+05:30

my days in mumbai are ending..........and so is my resolve to stay in this city!! a s i ve mentioned it was never my fave city.......
but after my mentor today said that my project is not upto the mark.......... i dun think i wanna spend another minute in this city!
two months of hard work gone down the drain in 2 min of his review! i knw if if it is not upto the mark thn maybe i shud just try to do smthng abt it but frankly i feel so tired! my head, legs and arms are hurting and i cant focus on work nemre! 2 mnths of continuous sincere work.........with out any support from my said mentor! he is a guy who at times wud not even talk to me straight! i did odd jobs in office with my prjct without any objection! the types u ask a secretatry to do!
whn i ask for support his reply was always i cant help u go your way abt it...and when i do u reject my work!

it s like sm1 has taken away my two mnths which i could have spent learning so much!
alas! i get back to work and raise my standard of prjct.........but with no mre passion to motivate me to do it.........i just look forward to get done with it!

mumbai local...........

2009-06-18T14:08:00.004+05:30

MY 2 months in Mumbai are coming to an end! Frankly it is so not my favourite city. Everyone says it is difficult to match the fast paced & hard life of Mumbai......... maybe it is ......but this fast pace is not because we need it here to survive........NO SIR...........but because people here have made it a part of their life unnecessarily (don’t bash me for sayin it). And hard ...... agn because we like it that way! Every mrng the mad rush to get into local frankly I ve never missed one for too much crowd and I travel in peak hours from a station whr 15-20 other females take the local with me(for first class compartment believe me 15 is a HUGE number.......it a small compartment with place for only 13 females to sit......rest of us stand) and evn if we dun mindlessly try to rush and hop onto the train I still dun think it wud make much difference. Just maybe we wont hurt sm1 in the process. Similarly AfTER u get onboard the HARD life doesn’t end sm1 or other wud either comment that I shud not carry a back pack bcoz it takes too much space(Well I paid lot of money for that bag I would take it anywhr I want................umm not to forget that I cant do without my laptop....all info in that little black box:P) if not me thn they wud be fightin on why sm1 arm is touching their bag(well I m pressed b/w a bunch of females and let me tell u it never fails to creep u out....... not to forget that I keep praying that plz god let thm all be straight...........nothin angst gays I swear but it wud be kinda creepy is sm female touches me intentionally ) I mean imagine a train compartment packed no place to stand and dear ladies fighting that one arm is touching a bag that doen not belong to the owner of the arm......! when I can only guess whr my own, my VERY OWN, PRECIOUS arm is!crazy it is!!
And today one of the very respectable aunty ji was looking at me top to bottom( I refuse to believe she was chkin me out........)she started mumbling smthng under her breath.......prbbly just sayin a prayer for me;)! very nice aunty ji I must admit......she was no way trying to jinx me, I m pretty sure!!
Well maybe it is a lil hard but thn we can try to take it easy! Try to be a lil more tolerate, smile a lil, try not to kill every1 on ur way home/office! Coz with all the (cat)fights happening every day I have seen thm becoming friends because they travel in same local! They make plans to meet on weekends, share recipes, have heard a few of thm singing together!
Well after spending two mnths here it is still not on my favourite places list...............but I guess I have to admit Mumbai is nonetheless a interesting place;)
I guess there are goin to be more blog post abt Mumbai from me! If sm1 is still readin this blog..................thank you so much for not abandoning it............please comment if u have ever been to Mumbai and share ur experience!
‘J’

p.s. I took the pic yday at marine drive..........!! not bad eh??

INDIA ON TOP........... :)

2009-05-15T11:02:00.004+05:30

So national geographic puts India right on top of their second annual greendex survey........
To know more about the survey visit
http://www.nationalgeographic.com/greendex
or pick a copy of 2day’s TOI!
so all those times u got on that bus/local train/carpool to save time and money u helped in making your planet greener........... It’s funny that all my cribbing about taking local everyday (m in Mumbai till end of June) is suddenly a very happy feeling for me!! Now I m feeling rather proud (ego inflation) that I m helping in keeping earth greener!! Also I m going to tell all my non vegetarian friends how THEY are contributing towards degrading the environment! ;)
Apart from it I want to reflect that how lack of resources is keeping us from adding in to global environmental trouble, or how because of religious sentiments or other reasons a sizable Indian population is vegetarian. It means or rather I assume that we are on top by default NOT by design.
And suddenly the inflated ego goes KABOOM!!!!!
We are helping the environment unknowingly but I wish we could do more about it. Like not using plastic bags, reusing that same plastic bag again and again, switching from bulbs to CFLs, and lot of other ways we already are aware of. Small things make big difference!
I am not a preacher plus as I mentioned earlier its not even a subject that needs preaching. We are aware of what all can be done and how we can contribute............
Knowledge is there; only thing we lack is action!
Have good day.......!!
‘J’

long lost blogger............

2008-11-09T11:08:00.001+05:30

okay......i have no excuses to not update my blog except my laziness.........but i m back:D

Shifting base from delhi to pune didnt just brought a change in surroundings but i guess it somewhat changed me as well.........i cant pinpoint it......but i definitely can feel it.........
again mayb its just not abt being in a different city...........but experiences i went thru as i mentioned in my last post.
experiences they teach you so much.........they change you! u start thinkin abt things u never considered. being here has been one such experience! first tym in hostel........u learn so much! sharin personal space with strangers at first n thn suddenly becoming gr8 frends with thm is just so....umm...different! but thn i ve roomie who has a heart of gold and can cheer me up netym of the day so its actually fun! i m thankful to god for givin me chance to move on from the frustration i was goin through! it was a welcome change, no longer i was dwelling on the mistakes i have made. that bad phase, it seems so far away now.......considerin i thot that it wont end:)
i guess thats how it works......whn u think that thr is no end to ur failures tr comes a chance to change everything. and it becomes a matter of choices we make that brings hope! that ray of hope at the end of the tunnel it does not reach us untill we do smthng to see it,till thn its all dead ends!

with renewed faith and hope
'J'

am i being selfish??

2008-06-04T23:17:00.003+05:30

everything happening around me has really got me CONFUSED!

i feel like a big ball of emotions......happiness, sad, confused, rage, guilty, disappointment, euphoric, and LOST!

most of all LOST! things happening in my personal life over the course of last year......it feels are taking its toll on me finally! i dun remember when last being alone with my thoughts was so scary for me.......

things everyone expects from me......i ve no problem with expectation.....i believe they care that why they expect but i wish once just once people around me wud understand dat i am a real person wid real needs......i also dream and work hard to realise them! i try my best to fit everyone in the equation but its not possible always to do that! smtimes i do wish to live just for myself! n i wish everyone wud understand me........

i m told no reason, not given a chance to give my side of story........just a verdict!
and dat too in a sense which i feel makes it a mere formality ......mayb so as not to lead me........

i wish one day i cud do the same.......say wat i wanted to say and then walk away........

am i being selfish to wish it??

TAGGED!!

2008-05-13T23:23:00.000+05:30

AaYuShi tagged me

so here i go........

1) LAST MOVIE U SAW IN A THEATRE?
27 Dresses

2) WHAT BOOK ARE U READING??
Rereading eleven minutes by paulo coelho

3) FAVOURITE BOARD GAME?
tho not really a fan but i liked playing the game of life

4) FAVOURITE MAGAZINE?
dont read thm much! except femina whn i m gettng my hair cut(dats is all they have)

5) FAVOURITE SMELLS?
smell of moist soil, chocolates, my hair:P

6)FAVOURITE SOUNDS?
pittar patter of rain, wind chimes

7) WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD?
being helpless

8) WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN U WAKE?
it cant be morning ALREADY!:O

9) FAVOURITE FASTFOOD PLACE?
Mcdonalds or pizza hut:D

10) FUTURE CHILDS NAME?
i dun have name of that child's father yet..........so it can wait!

11) FINISH THIS STATEMENT---'IF I HAD A LOT OF MONEY I'D'
Be RICH!!

12) DO U DRIVE FAST?
No

13)DO U SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL?
nah.......just me n my pillow!:D

14)STORMS--COOL OR SCARY?
definitely cool!

15)WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST CAR?
Hyundai Santro

16) FAVOURITE DRINK?
water:P, and iced tea(peach)

17)FINISH THIS STATEMENT-IF I HAD THE TIME I WOULD..
have updated my blog sooner

18)DO YOU EAT THE STEMS ON BROCCOLI?
ewww!

19)IF YOU COULD DYE YOUR HAIR ANY OTHER COLOUR, WHAT WOULD BE YOUR CHOICE?
i wud dye the ends purple!

20)NAME ALL THE DIFFERENT CITIES/TOWNS U HAVE LIVED IN?
delhi

21) FAVOURITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
cricket, F1, tennis, soccer!

22)ONE NICE THING ABOUT THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU?
it was very thoughtful of her!:)

23)WHATS UNDER YOUR BED?
dust bunnies:P n my lost hair pins!

24)WOULD U LIKE TO BE BORN AS YOURSELF AGAIN??
OH YES!

25)MORNING PERSON OR NIGHT OWL?
umm more of a night owl!

26)OVER EASY OR SUNNY SIDE UP?
sunny side up!

27) FAVOURITE PLACE TO RELAX?
home!

28)FAVOURITE PIE?
apple

29)FAVOURITE ICECREAM FLAVOUR?
currently mint choco chip!

30)OF ALL THE PEOPLE U HAVE TAGGED, WHO IS THE MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND FIRST?
...........

My turn to tag!!:D

i tag
meghna
Rajtilak
Soul
sahefa

I VE GOT THE POWER...........

2008-03-31T01:11:00.003+05:30

few days ago while coming back from shoppin smthng happened thought i should share!

i was crossing road near to where i live! its a very busy road so i usually wait for traffic lights to turn red before crossing(thr is no pedestrian light:( )so while waitin i saw a old fellow at the middle section of the road! he was carryin sm baggage n a few times tried crossing the road but none of the cars slowed down enough to let him cross! to be honest some of thm sped up! well finally he did cross it! n thn after i reached the middle section imagine my surprise whn some cars slowed down n one completely come to a halt so that i could cross!:O

i dint knw to how to feel abt the incidence...........freaked out or just laugh at the sheer stupidity!

n b4 i ve moral police breathin down my neck let me assure every1 i was fully clothed top to bottom! a no nonsense maroon tee with blue denims n flats!

perhaps it was just GIRL POWER!!;)

'J'

One for all, All for one!!

2008-02-22T22:43:00.002+05:30

From past month all of s have been reading abt raj thackrey’s comment on no-maharashtrians livin in maharashtra. I definitely am against on watevr he said!n truly can never care wat he will in future coz ppl with such limited mental capacity will never be able to grow out of thr prejudice.

Born and bought up in delhi I ve never experienced any single culture limited to just one region diff areas in delhi do have ppl in high concentration from same region n will speak their own language, celebrate their own culture but I dun remember whn I had a prob wid it. Right fom the school I had read abt India being a country wid a rich n diverse culture so accepted as a quintessential part of India.

Never in my life I had ne1 askin or telling me to not mingle wid ppl frm diff culture or religion. Nd I rather enjoy learning abt diff culture so it was more of honest effort to try to mingle up wid everyone.

But a recent incident really shook me. I understood how sm1 livin in a diff city lives in insecurity of not being in a more familiar place. I was at pizza hut with my sister celebrating her new job.:) after a healthy dose(as healthy as shoppin gets!!) of shoppin two of us were real hungry. N pizza sounded just perfect. Now both of us have certain outlets of pizza hut of our choice whr we knw service is always top notch. It was just another day at one of those. But as the luck wud have it the the guy who was serving us was a bit distracted. While I was placing the order he disappeared!K dint knw how to react I asked him if he has sm prob. He looked like a lil college kid so I also added I understand if his interest does not lie in his job but he shud do it wid full commitment. N off handedly we asked frm whr is he……….his reply pushed both of right on the guilt path! First he dint understand English much so watevr I said went ryt up his head. N thn he said he is frm haryana n knws his only fault is dat he does not belong to a big city.
I was shocked. I felt so low in front of him. Tho I repeatedly apologized for unintentionally hurtin him nd evn left him a note with the the payment dat “ the religion n region one belongs to can never define a person. Be proud of urself n best of luck!” he did forive me me(i think) coz he did say sorry for not payin attention and also dat he wud like to see us visit agn!(u bet i m gonna go thr agn, just so dat i can make guys thr understand i ve no prob wid ne1 one livin in delhi)but it mademe realize dat evn 2day we haven’t rise above our differences. Before being an Indian we are marathi or gujju or delhiite thn we have our respective religions to define us.how come sm1 livin here to earn his livelihood cannot belong to the city?? its just not fair to tell thm dat u do not belong! its as much belong to him as it does to me!

But these all divide us, separate us. Lets give humanity a chance lets say for once we are humans.period. no Indian, American or English. Just HUMAN! Tht is whn all of us wud truly stand united.

Cheers

‘J’

A new beginning.........but same old stories!

2008-01-08T23:56:00.000+05:30

boy time sure flies!! cant believe one week of 2008 is already over!!

it sure looks to be an interesting year...........n actually all new years are always interesting......................they r just so.ummmm.....NEW!:D

okay enuf wid my Pjs!

but on a serious note 2007 was pretty interesting! i learned so much, i took things in life seriously(.......okk i tried hard to get serious n did managed a few times.......I swear), spend good times wid frenz and family, had a bit of up and downs but all in all pretty gud year! n from last two years i ve ended year on perfect note............newzealand wining a cricket match under danny’s captaincy!(yayyy!!!!)

its hard to believe that a year has already passed! it looks like yday! but thn i cant deny that so many things changed! and so many dint!

ppl’s viewpoint dint change! the crime rates dint change.......actually they did .......they went up!!
still the gals are seen as an object of lust not normal human!!
and it was quite clear by what happened in Mumbai on new year’s!

n to top it off i overheard these two guys saying that its a girls fault! they invite trouble........they like to show off..........if they would be a bit decent(one of the guys exact words) than nothing of this sort would happen!

now i want to know if 40 gals surround these two guys is it really tough for them to take off every single cloth of their bodies?? or if six gals get together cant they gang rape a guy?? or how difficult it would be for a 30+ to rape a 8 yr old boy??

i hope u understand what i m trying to say..........its most of the time cowards who take advantage of a victim being in vulnerable situation! nothing gr8 about it definitely......but yes savagely.
its very easy to look at anyone with lust or degrade their dignity but it takes courage of highest level to respect! a courage most will lack!!

i m not a preacher...........but its important to understand that our acts in lyf are like boomerang! what we do comes back to us! good comes back as good and sometimes better but bad always comes back as worse!

HAPPY NEW YEAR

lets hope this year we see some positive changes!

‘J’

After a long long time........................

2007-11-21T23:51:00.001+05:30

well its true dat i m updating this blog after a very long time! i guess i was so caught up in everything dat i dint get tym to fulfill my commitments to certain stuff! this blog being one!

a lot of things happen during this period some gud, some bad and some downryt ugly!

every one of us at some point in our lives is required to make decisions! not decision regarding wat pizza/burger to order or wat to or not to wear! but BIG ones!

these decisions either make a lot of things or break a lot of things! like career, relationships, smtyms money.............n such!
everyone starts expecting from u to take ryt decision!n the whole expectation puts us under so much pressure!
but we cant b ryt everytym can we b? why does it become a crime to b wrong smtyms? i agree its gud if we take ryt decision at the ryt time but is that all?
we dont learn unless we make mistakes ryt? but thn why r the mistakes frowned upon?

increasingly i ve observed dat 2day the value of human is decided on the basis of value of his possesion! maybe dats why we are expected to be best at everythng we do! after all everyone want to see herself/himself ryt on the top of the social ladder!

but we shudnt forget some decision at some point of time will also affect the human within us.........our soul! n dat one decision will decide maybe not how much money we will make but how gud or bad human we are! n DAT i believe is one decision we shud worry about! coz if we take up the wrong path here.............

dont look for role models whn u can be one urself!
be successful, earn lot of maney its not bad! but just dont forget to be a HUMAN!

luv
'J'

Waiting for the true independence!!

2007-08-15T11:32:00.000+05:30

“......At the stroke of the Midnight hour, when the world sleeps, India will awake to life and freedom.”

These are famous words of Independent India.

But is this the kind of independence our fighters died for. Is this the India, which was dreamt of?
What kind of independence is it? We take out our patriotism on 15 Aug n 26 Jan every year. While the rest of the year is shut of in cupboards. We have more interest in what’s happening in cricket than in what’s happening to the country.
Everyone will somehow show their patriotism by donning tricolor 2mrw..........its good that we are happy about our country n proudly show. But where is the true spirit??

Why can’t we free ourselves of prejudices, the hate, the differences we are living with.
Why we still cant accept people for what they are.
Right since the childhood we learn............Divided we stand united! Where is that unity? Before we recognize our fellow companions as Indians we recognize them as Hindu, Sikh, Muslim or Christian. We still will ask what caste the other person belongs to. We’ll still size an individual on the money and assets one owns.

Perhaps being Indian is not good enough anymore for us.

After 60 years of Independence we are still bound in chains of our mentality.........where no one is good enough! OR maybe 60 years is just not enough time.........to learn to respect women, to learn to respect all religions, to come to terms with the fact that all of us are humans after all!

It looks like we need another 60 years to learn the true meaning of Independence. Lets hope its not too late when we finally do learn it!

Just take one minute and look at everyone with respect and love.................the world will look so much better!!

HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY!!

Jai Hind!!

‘J’

Poem!!

2007-06-19T14:24:00.000+05:30

This fathers day me n my sisters wrote a poem for dad

here it is

O Father O Father

U r god's Most B'ful Creature
As he cannot be everywhere
he has sent u to be always there

gud times or bad
u were always there dad
that s why we were never sad

u made us strong
always guided us to the path
whicha was never wrong

we always want you to remain this way
Bond b/w us should nevr fade away

Be it day ot night
we pray to god, all of us should
always be together in Journey called
'LIFE'

How is it guys??

lemme knw!!

bann of a different sorts!

2007-06-19T14:23:00.000+05:30

Recently two schools in mumbai banned students frm mingling with each other. Or if i be specific thn two Co Ed schools in the ,financial capital of India , metro city Mumbai, banned their students from evn touching the opposite sex. Reason ..........they want to discipline the students, who r overexposed to violence n vulgarity on TV these days! I dunno what but Smthng tells me that banning TV s might ve been more effective. I mean how do you expect students studying together to follow it?? half of us ve habit to shake hands whn we meet frenz.

But what i dont understand is school's reaon r they sayin tht everytym opposite sexes shake hands it leads to sexual encounters??how is a handshake or a friendly hug is categorized as vulgar??

what happened to school being the first instituition where a kid learns abt outside world? These kind of immature decision will lead to nothing but they ll make kids vulnerable whn they step in the outside world.

Also is it right to forget the Fact that Humans r naturally curious creatures? If the fruit is forbidden we gotta eat it. I think instead nething good it only spells T.R.O.U.B.L.E.

Other side of life!!

2007-05-15T11:02:00.000+05:30

let me tell u a story!!

I live in delhi (dunno if i mentioned it earlier or not)..........n arnd 2 yrs ago i had to take a bus all the way to ma coll.........!
well it was used to be smwhr arnd a 2hr ride :(! i still complain bout those days.............tho now its better wid metro!:)
one incidence changed ma perspective towards life!!
One day this very poor lady wid her daughter boarded the bus!!not the first time i ve seen a poor.................But first time I realized how hard n cruel life cud be to you!

the lil girl was wearin a piece of thread folded 3-4 times in her ear instaed of an earring!
I dunno why, but this simple fact dat she is just too poor to evn afford a piece of jewelry for her hit me hard! i mean think about it how much wud it cost?? well i once bought a pair of studs for 25 bucks(junk jewelry!!) now if she go for smthing simple i m sure it wud not cost more thn 10 bucks or evn less! but she simply couldn’t afford it!!

i m sure to most of u i m not making much sense! I mean almost all of us wud agree tht evn if she or her parents wud ever had any money they wud probably spend it to buy sm extra food rather thn on smthing as useless as an earring!

but it didnt stopped her frm getting her ear pierced! Or trying to make an earring of thread!

i dunno why it affected me but i can say for sure it surely made grateful to god, my parents, sisters, frenz, every1!

Grateful for the things................luxuries I m livin wid!!

grateful tht i can afford 3 meals evryday(tho i skip my meals quite frequently..............but I appreciate the option of skippin having been thr!)

I wont say I became all wise after it! Or that now I ve stopped spending on eating out or movies or parties or nething!
but yes it made me realize wht my life cud ve been!!

i dunno the purpose of writing!! except tht i felt the need to share it!

Good day!

‘J’

World cup comes to an end for me!!!

2007-04-25T13:57:00.000+05:30

Maybe not officially............but wid the exit of Newzealand WC ends for me!!
i thot i ll update my blog on 28th celebrating kiwis winnin the cup!!i m sure lots of u ll will disagree wid my belief in thm!!but if their is one team 2day in world cricket who evn tho r lacking in resorces........but still performs excellently is..........NEWZEALAND!!

it broke my heart watchin thm lose!!but i was still not feelin dis lost......coz i knw evn reachin semis is an achievement in itself!!tho i wud ve loved to see thm lifting d cup for another reason thn dey r my fav team n definitely deserving as well!dat reason was dat dis most probably was last WC stephen Fleming was playin!!for a person who has given so much to not just nzl cricket but World cricket.....it certainly wud ve been a very well earned reward!
sm1 who was no doubt the most shrewd n calculating captain cricket has evr seen!!an example of his intelligence was seen in recent super 8 match against srilanka!tho dey lost the match but stephen made sure dat dis has very lil impact on deir NRR!!so if the worst case scenario happens thn deir NRR will get thm to semis!!

stephen fleming has always had a special place in my heart!!tho i m quite smitten by dere left arm spinner..........but it was stephen who made me fall in love wid the whole nzl team!!n in turn my crush for a long tym!!tho Stephen is also very good lookin but i was attracted to him coz of his presence on field!
i knw ppl will always be against my decision of supportin nzl team rather thn India!!but i cud never support a team just for the sake of thm being my home team!!
my support for nzl goes beyond 10 yrs!!n dats only coz dey are hard wrkng lot!!dey r a gr8 example of not just team spirit but also playin game in gud spirit!!

Stephen is leaving a hollow behind him.......if Dan becomes captain thn he has a lot to prove!filling stephen's shoes wont be easy!for 10 yrs he has captained d team.......it has become quite hard to imagine sm1 else in his place!!but i m sure danny will do gud....after all he has been groomed for dis post for years.....dat too under stephen!!

Stephen's presence on field was amazing!sm1 u cant help but respect,n thn wonder how does he make evrythng look so easy!like he knew dat was goin to happen!!
he is player not just his own team mates but also lot of other player look upto!

HE DEFINITELY IS THE BEST CAPTAIN WE HAVE SEEN!!

it will be very different fellin to see him on field.....just as a batsman........not the captain!!

we r sooo gonna miss you!

good luck!!

'J'

Striaght from heart!!

2007-04-24T13:30:00.000+05:30

hmmmm for ppl who knw i ll never come across as a person who thinks a lot!!not dat ppl arnd me thinks i m dumb(which obviously m not, incase u were wonderin!;))!!but they wud never believe dat at 1am in d morning i ll be thinking abt thm n sneakin a look in my life, thinkin how important or not dey r to me!!

b4 any of u, who knws me gets, angry.........lemme assure u guys dat all of u r important to me.........to those who dont knw me u guys r also important to me,dat too for 2 reasons!!one u guys r readin my blog :P..............n second......my frenz n u guys r the reason dat i m writin 2day!!

i was wonderin how ppl in general affect us!!
one thing is for sure evrytym we come across sm1 we ve our own(i mean u cant ve ne other person's) perception of dem.........n thn we start expecting things frm thm!!

these expectation cud be nethng frm dem expecting u to say hi(usually in case of meeting sm1 for first tym), or expecting u to do gud in exams or job(ppl who care abt you...most of the tym parents, siblings, frenz), evn sm ppl will be expecting u to drop dead(dont evn think abt denying it....if not dead thn atleast sm injury.....no matter physical or mental)!
wat wud our lyf wud ve been if these guys were not thr.........yes maybe we wud ve never felt ne pressure......like to look gud or excel in watevr we do! BUT thn wud we had felt the same sense of achievment?? like in case of job whn u r promoted no doubt dat u r very happy......but how wud u ve felt if thr was no one to share this happiness with!!i mean if ppl dont expect nethng frm u den dey wont care wud dey??

if i was in the situation i can say for sure dat i wud ve felt lost, disappointed, evn unwanted at times!!
evry1 arnd me irrespective of wat dey except frm me.....makes me want to become better individal!!n its not for just sm selfish reason but coz i care abt ppl who love me......ppl i knw,who will always be thr no matter wat i m!! for ppl who disapprove of me.......to show thm wat i m......how m i a better thn dey evr will be!!;)

its not a moral lesson.......but give ppl arnd u a min!!b4 complainin dat dey r puttin you under pressure, expectin too much to do well in lyf........just imagine wat if dey dey never cared!!

But dont forget dat whn u expecting smthng frm others.........be sweet to thm!!
dont expect too much(not hypocrisy dear......just put urself in dere shoes)........n let thm knw dat u care n will always be there!
let thm knw how imp dey r to u!!

like every1 arnd me is to me!

god bless

'J'

P.S.thnx for readin evn whn i m being my crazy self!!

2007-03-18T12:04:00.000+05:30

hey peeps!!

well being a Indian i dont think its possible for me to not post about cricket!!!
specially whn WC is goin on!!:D

hmm quite a disappointing start for India!!i m sure every1 out thr agrees widme!
played bad.........Indians lost the match!!Bangla definitely outplayed them in all areas!!so u have to give them credit for it!!! but my take on WC has to be a lil diff!!so i m not gonna talk talk abt this match.u guys can find about it just by switchin on ur tv!!

but in this whole shameful defeat of India not just shadowed Bangla’s fab play but also another match.......Pak vs Ireland! Pakistan is out of the WC in first stage n Ireland doin first major upset or the tournament! Ireland played gud............fantastic fielding........gr8 catches.......good bowling.....n batting!! in short Pak was no match for Irish! n i cant help but mentionin Johnston's catch was a killer!!:D chk out urself>>>>

but these two matches once again bring up the discussion dat shud associate teams play in WC??
Aussie skipper ponting can say no to it widout much thought but these kinda matches present a different story!

also after Zim vs Ireland(once again!!) tie i heard an so called expert sayin dat Zimbabwe does not deserve test playin status if they cant beat a minnow!my ques to you sir is................should we allow Pakistan to play tests??now dat they lost to Ireland......atleast Zim managed a draw!!n wat about India??one of the major contenders for the cup this year losing to Bangladesh!!tho they r improving(ie bangla......incase u were thinkin India!!;)) but still i wud be lying if i say dat i anticipated this result!i guess no one did!
heck all i was anticipating was a close contest!!thats it!

think about it people...............after these matches do we ve ne right to say dat these teams dont deserve to play in WC?? after last nite i have to say that if ne1 do its them!! these r the team who r here to prove themselves n till now they ve done a pretty impressive job!!

Good luck guys!! keep it up! HATS OFF TO U GUYS!!!

n b4 i go I shud also mention NZL(yay!!!go kiwis!!!) won their match against England!! well played boys! ;)

umm did i mention NZL is ma fav team!!

n Thank you Hershelle Gibbs for great entertainment!

byee

Njoi the WC!!

‘J’ ;)

BREAKING FREE!

2007-02-15T21:38:00.000+05:30

heyy guys!!
i hope all of u had a fantastic start of new year!!
n a evn better, if not lovey dovey mushy mushy, Valentine!!a lil l8 Valentine wishes from me!!:D
i dont think i m really l8 coz evn 2day i saw guys buying flowers n heart shape balloons for their sweethearts(!!how original!!)!or maybe dat was bcoz dat now flowers n ballons r bak to their usual low price!!in dat case GET A LIFE CHEAPOS!!

neways this post is not about ppl's love lyf or smthng!

this post has been inspired by this Nagesh kukunoor movie called 'DOR'!!

it about two women Zeenat(gul panag) n Meera(ayesha takia)!their journey thru lyf!!
where former has come all the way frm Himachel Pradesh to Rajasthan to save lyf of her husband!N latter has lost the ryt to live bcoz her husband died!!
well for the story you guys ve to see the movie!!
my purpose of mentioning the movie is not to share how gud the movie is!(tho it is beautiful........all of u shud watch it!!)i wanted to share the lyf of a widow!!

this movie gives u a real insight in lyf of a widow!!how her right to live is taken frm her coz her husband died!!situation it presents which made u to question if we're actually livin in 21st century!
whr a father in law is ready to sell her daughter in law for some money!!
wat kind of society we r livin in??whr a gal is first forced to get married in young age n thn if smthng happens to her husband she is also expected to stop livin!i wont be surprised if the family just wishes for her to drop dead asap!tho i think death wud be better thn the lyf they r forced to live!!

if the wife dies no one expect husband to evn shed a tear forget about askin him not to njoi livin!!

last week one of ma fren who went to a place in rajasthan told me about a recent death in her family.wat she told me was cruel to the women!!if their husband dies for about a week the womenfolk in the family will wake THE WIDOW at 5 in the morning n force her to cry!!gosh wat kinda animals r we!!we cant help her to get over the death but we certainly will make sure dat she never get over it!

N WE CALL OURSELVES CIVILISED!!

think about it guys we r the young generation its not happenin in just uneducated families but sm families whr evn the educated ppl have lost sense!

we r young lets not let it happen to ne1 we knw!!

its a request...........

LETS SHOW THESE PEOPLE THAT A HUMAN LYF HAS MUCH MORE WORTH THEN THEY THINK!!

LETS BREAK FREE!!

love

'J':)

ANOTHER YEAR GONE!!

2006-12-30T21:52:00.001+05:30

Hmmmmm...............another year bidding good bye!!!

well just two more days n we ll all welcome 2007!!i m sure most of u are busy planning parties on new year eve, thinkin of those new year resolution, planning abt another year ahead!!
but b4 i start doin it i thot why not finally update my blog atleast one more time in this year!
but the ques was abt wat?? i can talk abt cricket(ashes, SA vs IND, SL vs NZL.....take ur pick!), saddam hussein's execution, politics(quota issue is still fresh in our minds)n a to z things!!
but thn wat spl abt it?? why not talk abt wat i learned in this year!!!which was quite eventful!!

well not in ne particular order but things i wud luv to share wid u guys out thr r...................n also might say a few thank you!!

1) U CAN ACTUALLY MAKE GUD FRENZ ON NET!!

i knw sm of u knew it frm years but i trully discovered it this year!whn i made
sm really good, cool, intelligent frenz!! :D
these were the ppl i cud share my thots n still wont feel stupid!! so thank you
guys for being thr!:)

2) I LEARNED DAT GOVT. OFFICIALLY DOES NOT CARE ABT STUDENTS!!
do i need to say nething abt it??

3) I LEARNED DAT I SHUD NEVER MAKE AN OPINION ABT SM1 B4 I KNW THM!!
Totally based on personal experience..............!!

4) I LEARNED TO VALUE ALL RELATIONSHIPS!
let it be frenz, family or ne1!! evn ppl i dont like!!;)

5) I LEARNED HOW TO BAKE A CAKE!!
wat i dint knew it!!it taste wonderful!!rich chocolate cake!!

6) I LEARNED WHN U COME OUT OF TEENAGE U DONT EXACTLY............FEEL NE DIFFERENT!
actually no different at all...........tho evry1 expects u to be responsible,
mature!!they wont let go evn one chance to say...."act according to ur age"!
(it sucks whn they say dat......it wud make u wonder if u r 20 or 200!!)

7) I LEARNED THE JOYS OF BLOGGING!!
YAYYYYYY!!!:)

well i knw it a short list but thn these were just the major things!!n also i m 20:)
so i dint learned evrything in last year!!i spent 19 years learning!! thank you very much!!

tho i improved my sarcasm!!:D

now i ll make sure dat i incorporate evry thing i learned in this n past many years, in comin years!!

also i ll try my best to learn things which wud evolve me as a better human being!!
its not a new year resolution but a promise to myself!!

i ll also update my blog regularly!!

and b4 i end this post THANK YOU EVRY1 FOR READIN MY BLOG!!I hope u njoyed readin it!!
may god bless u alll!!

i m l8 in wishing............but still MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

n

A VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR!! may all of u ve a wonderful New Year!!

GO PARTY!!

C ya all in new year!

bye!!!

'J'

MUSIC!!!!

2006-11-29T16:52:00.000+05:30

Ask ne1 wat their interest are & the chances are dat u ll get this answer -"mmm.....i like listening to music!!"
i always wondered why is it like this & after a brain storming session i found dat.....apart frm the fact dat we all luuuuuurrrrvvv it.........music is smthing u can always relate to your life!!smthing which is always there!!
i mean we can....(atleast i can)....identify certain parts of our life wid music!!
smtimes music can remind u of certain situation, frenz, sm party, evn dat sm1 special!!;)
i mean take me for example there's a ringtone on ma cell which still reminds me of my vacation, wid ma family, two years ago!! a song which reminds me of daniel vettori!!(if u dont knw who m i talkin abt......go google his name!! increase ur GK & thn cm back to the blog!!)
evn ma current ringtone reminds me of a fren who is a huuuge fan of bon jovi!!
dats the magic of music!!
whn u r feelin low.....music will always cheer u up!!

BEAUTIFUL THING MUSIC IS!! DONT U ALL AGREE????

THN GO LISTEN TO SM GUD MUSIC!!

good bye for nw!!

PEACE!!

'J'

Sharad Powar incident!!

2006-11-11T01:37:00.000+05:30

I m sure evry1 who follows cricket must know wat m i takin abt.........but incase u dunno..........MANNNN!! u r soo lucky to be saved of all the useless babbling of news channels!!

i believe dat indian media had blown this incident way out of proportions!!!
i agree dat Damien Martyn did nudged 'powar' off the stage but these kinda things happens whn u r excited! atleast it happens wid me all the time......like whn smthing gud is on air ,& sm1 comes & stands in front of tv or me evn i do push, nudge or shove(choose ur adjective on basis on how cruel u want to be to me) them aside so i can see tv!! & i m sure dat aussies were excited to finally lift the Champions Trophy!!
So i think dat media was too hard on aussies to call thm egoistical, arrogant, rude, Bighead or watevr!!

Incidentally same media forgot to mention dat same day same arrogant, rude....blah,blah aussies helped the grounds men to dry the field so dat the play can resume early!! well i dont remember media labelling thm angels, gentlemen or smthing along the lines!

but the funniest part came after 'Mr. Powar' changed his statement........to whom earlier the whole incident was NO BIG DEAL!.........was now callin aussies uncivilised & impolite(i wonder wat made him realise DAT!!)
& the same media who was SO considerate abt our very own BCCI Chief..........went all sarcastic on him.........

now after incidents like this & many other(take raakhi saawant& mika's for example)i wonder wats more DRAMATIC......... our daily soaps or these news reports!!

Give it a thought & lemme knw!!

TILL THN IT WAS ME........REPORTING FOR MY OWN BLOG!! ;-)

'J' :)

Diwali!!

2006-10-23T18:01:00.000+05:30

its one of ma fav festivals. In case u dont know wat it is u can always google the word ‘diwali’.........u ll get loads of info on it!!
i wud ve luved to brief all of those who ve no idea abt this festival but thn this post will be way much longer thn i wud like to write......but i can tell u dat this is one of the major festival of hindus!! (so now u know one more thing abt me, actually two, one i m a hindu by religion & second i m an indian!! )
but i think ppl spend unneccesary money on diwali.........on fire crackers, sweets (though i dont mind chocolates!!), presents & all! i mean i m not against it but i think we shud keep a chk over our expenditure!! & i believe all of us can do with sm less show off on diwali!!
personally i m against all fire cracker stuff!! i ven’t lit a cracker since i was 12 yrs or so! but thn the prob is none of the indians can imagine diwali without it............
my fav thing on diwali is all the diyas (oil lamps), candles & rangoli........
very clean & pretty way to celebrate............
so as u can guess i spend my diwali decorating my home with above three things & sm wall & door hangings i made myself!! & lemme tell u it was way much fun thn those polluting & noisy crackers!!
But one thing u ve got to luv abt diwali is u get to meet lot of ppl u ven’t met in a long time bcoz of smthing or the other!! i absolutely enjoyed it......: )

another thing u r gonna luv is the day following diwali...... ‘ Gowardhan puja’
dat day in my family we prepare special ‘prasad’. It include ‘kadi’, very spicy ‘Mix veg ’ & ‘ rice’ or ‘bajra’. I absolutely luv this lunch!!
& after dat ..........one of the fav festival of all sis.........‘Bhaiya duj’!!
wat a way to end diwali!!

hope all of u also enjoyed ur diwali & hope all the sisters will enjoy bhaiya duj 2mmorow!!

with these wishes think its time to end this post!! i promise my nxt post will be much more interesting!!

till thn

Ciao!!
J

Introduction!!

2006-10-20T11:16:00.000+05:30

as i m starting a blog i believe intro is in order so here we go....

ABOUT THE BLOGGER:-

well hi i m the blogger!!
well unless u knw me i ll try to keep myself anonymous!! u knw it adds mystery to a character........u can call me J though.........(dunno why i chose dat)!!
i m a female!! i'll turn 20 in a month or so!! i dont ve a bf & frankly dont ve time or patience to deal wid one........;)
i m studying!! planning to do ma MBA (in finance....just in case u were wondering) after i finish ma grad......
i m a dreamer.........but i m not a piscean(actually i m a saggi!)
my blog name describes mt attitude........i dont care wat ppl think......i am what i am!!
& just to clear myself i m not endorsing reebok.........although i luv evry rbk thing i own!!! especially ma blue collared tee.......

ABOUT THE BLOG:-

well this blog wud be about discussing..........nething under the sun!!
although if u want me to write abt smthing just leave it in a comment........i appreciate free flow of ideas.......

dats all for today evry1..........

adieu
J